Jumbled.

So, I just realized that recently, this blog has been a lot about what God is doing in my life, and less about His word. I plan on changing that very soon-- but right now, I feel like I should (once again) update you guys about the craziness of my life with Jesus.

First of all, I would like to make a recommendation. My dear friend, Katherine, is one of the most spiritually connected and amazing people that I know. She has some of the most amazing thoughts and ideas too, which she shares on her blog, Growing Rainbows. I highly encourage that you check it out-- she is very connected with God, and has some wonderful insights.


Over this past weekend, I was fortunate enough to be included in the Work Crew for the Episcopal Diocese of Colorado's annual fall youth retreat, Genesis. It was a really interesting and different experience from all the other Genesis weekends I've been on before, when I had absolutely NO idea how much work went into running the dining hall, just to ensure everyone got a fresh, hot meal. I feel like over the weekend, I learned another definition of having a servant's heart, and devoting yourself to doing God's work for God's people. And let me tell you, folks, I was exhausted. Between serving, bussing and cleaning the whole dining room, going to the hot tub both nights felt way more than welcome. I was also lucky enough to get to bond with some of my peers from the youth group, and really get to know them on a different level. I also got the chance to see my friend John, who I hadn't seen in almost a year... so that was really nice as well. John is the kind of friend who you can tell anything, and he will never look at you any differently for it. So the fact that I had the chance to confide in him again was really, really awesome.

But there was a whole 'nother side to this past weekend entirely. A lot of things were happening in my brain on Friday night alone, and in talking with a few of my really close friends over the weekend, my thoughts started to get more and more jumbled, because I feel like God was bringing up some things that I had let slip out of my radar. Two of these things include my relationship with my boyfriend and my future as a woman of God. Examining the latter, I started to feel as though this Music Education thing that God has me doing right now may be a very temporary thing, or something that I do to learn how to communicate well with and relate to other people, but not something that I will do for 30+ years, like my wonderful father has. I felt like He was really bringing back up the possibility of becoming a church planter, or possibly a worship leader-- or maybe even both (although, if He was, it was in a very roundabout way).

Now, don't get me wrong, I absolutely glorify God in the fact that I was able to take a long-needed weekend off, away from everything that might keep my mind occupied. I just have a lot to think an pray about.... which is kind of why I am writing this all down here. I would really REALLY appreciate if you guys could pray for me. Pray that God gives me clarity, and that He would light his path for me, so that I could see enough to even just take my next step. I feel like sometimes,  God puts streetlights on his roads for us that aren't always close enough together for their lights to overlap-- so sometimes, you can see where you are, and you can see a little bit of what's coming up down the road, but the path that it takes to get to that place ahead of you is a little unsure. It's there, alright, and it's all paved and ready for you to travel down it, that stretch just isn't as lit as some of the rest of the road is. And I guess I'm just in between streetlights right now.

Well, that's my piece for now. May God bless you and keep you safe and out of harm's way!

OH! And don't forget to stop and admire the beauty of the fall. This is my favorite time of year, because God's just up there with a paintbrush decorating His earth with the most beautiful and vibrant colors He can find. :)